I don't know if this is a real thing or just something to blame my sudden lack of common sense on, but since I have been pregnant I feel stupid all of the time. The worst place to have this problem is at work but of course that's where I feel it the most. I don't know if there is any life lessons I can draw from this situation other than constantly feeling humbled. It has been very difficult for me too. I don't have a problem being humbled, it is the feeling stupid part that is hard to accept. I feel like I forget simple things or can't make decisions for myself because I might ruin something. All I can hope is that this "test" is temporary and keep reminding myself that God, my husband, and true friends accept me regardless. I believe there is a plan for everything and nothing is forever...but June cannot come soon enough!
Thursday, December 1, 2011
I love being able to finally talk openly about being pregnant. I have kept it a secret since October 9th! It has not been easy. Whenever we'd go out with friends or talk to someone in passing I'd give Joel a look and he would proceed to shake his head no...I can say now after nearly two months of silence I'm glad we kept it a secret. It was exciting to have something just between the two of us and to tell different groups of people in different ways.
I love some of the reactions we got, especially from Joel's grandmas. When he called to tell his mom's mother Thanksgiving Day I could hear her squealing over the phone. This is not her first great grandchild but you would not be able to tell by how excited she was for us and for herself. She even had to call me later to congratulate me personally. She said it was all she could do to keep from running down the street, announcing it to everyone. She's so cute!
We combine Thanksgiving and Christmas with Joel's dad's side of the family because we don't see them in December. We exchange gifts with them at this time so we thought it would be a great way to announce that I was pregnant. We framed a picture of the ultrasound for his grandmother to open. Her reaction to the picture was priceless. She kept looking at it with a confused look on her face and then finally asked what it was. Not quite the obvious announcement we had planned but funny non the less.
Joel and I are very excited, of course. We have been "not preventing" since late April so I wasn't sure how long it would take. I can't wait to find out the gender of the baby to get the decorating underway. Joel is convinced it's a boy and I want a girl. He also wanted twins. In the end I think we both just want a healthy little baby. I can't even begin to imagine how this new member of our family will change everything forever but I'm ready to experience it with my husband. Actually, I think seeing him as a dad is what I'm most excited about. He typically refuses to hold newborns but will be forced to hold ours...I'm emotional just thinking about it.